Recently I was hit by massive panic attacks out of nowhere. They came on suddenly and I wasn’t prepared to handle them. If you’ve ever experienced a panic attack then you know how crushing they can be. You feel as if your being suffocated and the walls are closing in on you. At least that’s how it was for me.
I was just watching cartoons with my kids when, “BOOM” intense panic. I went to Urgent Care and had the Dr. there tell me that it was all in my head and prescribe me meds. After that I went to two more doctors because I felt like there was a brick on my chest and it was impairing my breathing. I wanted answers. I then went to the hospital to get X-ray’s and blood work done. All the results came back normal. I was prescribed another medicine and told again that it was all in my head. After I got the results I had to finally face the fact that 1) I am getting enough air in my lungs and 2)It is all in my head. Friends, that’s a hard truth to accept. I was crushed. I have a family history of this so I shouldn’t have been so surprised but I was. I never thought it would happen to me.
I got home, pulled myself together and took the meds. What a night! Honestly, to this day I don’t know if it was my mind playing tricks on me or the meds but my heart felt like it was pumping out of my chest and it felt like I was having a heart attack. I thought I was going to die. After a night of hell, I woke and decided I will not be taking that med ever again and asked for another.
I did end up taking the new med as needed and it ended up okay but it caused me to not sleep. I was already sleep deprived so the meds keeping me awake caused even more mental problems. It was a really rough time.
The reason I wanted to go into detail about my experience is so you can know about the changes I’ve made in my life that have helped me start to get past the panic attacks. I’ll go into specifics about each one but here’s a quick list:
- Take a daily vitamin
- Sit in the sunshine for at least 20 minutes (if it’s out)
- Intense workouts at least three days a week
- Daily Bible Devotionals
- Daily guided meditation
- See a therapist
- Started the Serotonin Power Diet
Also, I did intense research about panic attacks as well as take an online Cognitive Behavioral Therapy course. It helped me understand how panic attacks work and that they were not going to kill me. The other minor thing I did was get adult coloring books and take time to do those when I felt I needed to take a mental break.
Am I 100% cured? Absolutely not. What I can say is that I’m in recovery and I take it day by day but I’m not having moments where I feel like I need to go to Urgent Care any longer. The mind is such a powerful tool and if you let worry and anxiety about the future control your thoughts then it will start to have a physical impact on your body. Maybe you can relate to something I mentioned above or maybe you’re still suffering from intense attacks. If you are suffering, then I hope in the next few posts will help you get through the dark times.
The most important thing is to never lose hope that you can be cured.